The last few weeks have been brutal!!!
We shipped Alex off to New York for the summer to visit her father and siblings. We took Yudith to the university to start during the summer semester. Becky went to Miami for a week to vista grandma, grandpa, her aunt, uncle and cousins. And Manny and I took a deep breath, did absolutely NOTHING for several days.
With all the transitions in our lives right now, I have had a difficult time keeping my emotions in check. I am still crying for everything. But I feel so much PEACE!
I'm so proud of my girls, the maturity and responsibility they are showing. They strength they exhibit, the tenderness and compassion they have to others.
What more can a mom ask for? My heart is so full.
And yet, in a slightly selfish manner, I am still yearning for more. I want my Lucy girl home! That would make everything complete right now.
We have in the last month and a half, received I800A approval, mailed all our documents to the agency, went DTC, and just today I received an email that we were LID yesterday! That's a mouthful!!!!
Every time I hear from the agency, I feel refreshed and my energy to keep plodding along with the fundraisers and yard sales is renewed.
God is so good, all the time! He fills my cup every day, to overflowing, and every morning He renews my spirit. I hope that in all the back and forth, in all the paperwork, leg work, sales and interactions with people, I can somehow manage to convey the importance of finding homes for these precious children. I pray every night that one more child finds their forever family.
As for Manny and myself, we have talked and talked and talked until we are blue in the face about what our role in the adoption community will be after Lucy is home. We don't have the exact answers from God yet, but count on us becoming more involved with the advocacy side of things.
If you have any questions, please let me know. I don't have many answers being new to the scene, but I've met some amazing women with a huge wealth of information and even huger (that's a word, right?!) hearts for Jesus and adoption! I can put you in touch with someone that can guide you!
If God is speaking adoption into your heart, please, please, please, don't hold back for fear that you won't qualify, or that you can't afford adoption! We started this process without a penny put away for adoption... God grows our dollars every month, He has provided through fundraisers, gifts, and donations of stuff for yard sales. Yes, I've had to do some things I didn't enjoy (like selling heirlooms that were special to me, manning endless yard sales in this Florida heat, scrubbing some toilets, and learning to ask for donations, giving up little luxuries that made my life easier or better). But, what wouldn't you do for your child? If your child was taken and put in an orphanage right now, what would you be willing to do to get her or him back? That's how I feel right now. She was knit in her biological mother's womb just for me, and I will move mountains for her.
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